back off the edge (for now)

meant to be working... 10.00PM and still going @ it... joy... no music... J not feeling too good... smoke exposure from the fires in Collie... dropped ash and haze across the whole city... could get headphones but too lazy... that kind of day... so hectic... not finished yet... sipping on wine while i do my thing... trying to summon up some 'creativity' to explain our result... joy

been busy lately; know i haven't posted for a minute so i'm just throwing this out here free-form... as you know... i kind of went off the deep end @ Easter... had some concerned contacts... including a couple of beautiful people who stumbled across me... their good wishes and kind words help

so... i'm back in a place approximating sanity... visions of death (mine at least) are no longer flowing through my head... i am somewhat reconnected with what might be called, for want of a better term, reality... i work, eat, work, sleep, work, work, work... this is what is known as 'The Good Life'... fuck that; someone get me out of here (please!)

one positive thing has happened in the past few weeks... I have adopted two full-grown siberian huskies... toby & snowy, male & female, 8 & 7 years, gorgeous (photos to follow)... i take them for a walk every morning; brother-in-law n takes them every night. just having someone/thing around that is actually happy to see me is an incredible boost... the routine of walks & feeding helps too...

another positive thing happened too... wow; 2 +ves, almost sounds like a normal life... met w/ my older church elder f/ way back G.A. he is the man; a genuine servant of God with a heart for the lost... we met for coffee on Sat. morning and just caught up... that was encouraging; real talk w/ a fellow Christian; haven't had that for the longest... real prayer too... so anyway, he got me praying again; so i've been trying to live that 'good life' the past few days... we'll see how long it lasts; but for now its a start...

ooops... a 3rd +ve, forget this, it's over... 3 times is a habit... if this continues i might actually get used to good things happening... bfc came over on sunday... great to catch up w/ a quality person... and also met a cat whose sister & brother-in-law i'm close to, but our paths had never crossed before... hit it off right off the bat... lets just call him BigE... good to meet up with people you can just have that kind of instant rapport with, who understand how the bullshit can get you down...

NOW FOR THE NEWS:

good luck to the Professor; chillin' w/ his lady on the other side of the globe... hope the lifestyle comes your way...

thanks to MsP & Henry for the comments, advice & concern; greatly appreciated...

sis; hope you get better soon...

now back to work...

stay safe ppl

dc